Saved by Grace

(The Christ Pantocrator of St. Catherine’s Monastery at Sinai)

“The fact that we can’t save ourselves is something we acknowledge in words, but in fact we find it very hard to accept. We’d all like to be saved by our own efforts, to be strong and robust, to boast about our successes, to shine in other people’s eyes, even on the spiritual level. Worldly people want to be highly regarded because they have luxurious cars, expensive watches, designer clothes, professional prestige, and go around with beautiful people. As good Christians, we may want to stand out for our virtues, charisms, experience, and sound judgment. Then we consider that we are on the right path. But in fact we’re in danger of ending up with exactly the same mindset as the worldly people described above. Very often, without realizing it, we have a worldly outlook on the spiritual life: self-fulfillment, self-affirmation, expansion of ego, etc. And spiritual pride, we must be aware, is sometimes more destructive than social, worldly pride.

We cannot be saved by what we do; we can only be saved by grace, when God’s freely given love comes, takes hold of us, and transforms us, sometimes gently and progressively, but sometimes in a spectacular way. In general, the transformation is fairly slow and progressive, without our always being able to notice the action of grace.

We would like to feel that we’re making progress, improving and advancing, and sometimes we do see it: we’re aware that God has untied a knot . . . But very often we don’t feel anything. Yet God is still acting, and one day we will see the fruits. Like the seed the Gospel speaks of, a tiny little grain of mustard seed, God has secretly sown something in our hearts; then, whether we wake or sleep, the seed grows, bears fruit, and becomes like a tree in which the birds of the sky can find refuge. These are the fruits of the secret working of grace for our benefit and our neighbors’; they grow by themselves, so to speak, and we end up seeing how the poor lost birds of today’s world find consolation, hope, encouragement, acceptance, and tenderness with us.

So the underlying issue, in the human and spiritual life, is to discover (and practice) the inner attitudes, the dispositions of heart, that make us permeable to God’s grace and attract it unfailingly: small and poor, yet attracting God’s grace in an absolutely certain way. Not because anyone can manipulate God. If anyone can’t be manipulated, it’s God. But he is faithful, and he loves us. . .”

~Jacques Philippe